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From The Ashes
03:40
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On the 3rd of the 12th month of 83
Robert Anthony entered the hellish fiery scream
Of life, they gave birth to the man on a mission
Came to piss off the world with his tears and his vision
Of self richestness, like he grabbed the torch
To fucking reach at the weak souls sitting on the porch
Open the wounds of scare tissues and tombs
For the sake of breakage and the flight just to enter your womb
I came to fuck it, leave it in the bottom of my nest
So I can come back in a later date and tear apart the rest
The hunter prowling on the prey on this bright sunny day
Moving forward with intent for departure dates
Sacrifice goes to those who sell they souls
For understanding of the painted picture fishing in this hole
Come on and get real with me, and search for progress
Releasing all the darkness that’s imbedded in my chest
Get back to basics; wash behind the ear lobes of fakeness
Fake shit, running in an orgy of statements
Of fearful tactics that spreads to the trendy
The minds willing to sir come to anybody steering
Everybody aint fake this is what life’s becomes
A shell of mirages, plastic and fronting on the funds
Aint nobody real cause nobody’s real to themselves
So fuck the bullshit, I’m looking for the knowledge of wealth
The answer can’t be found in the sky by vertebrates who lay
Cause wickedness follows those fucking birds that prey
Feeding all who listen this watered down mush of mudd
Soldiers hit the streets with pins and write from the blood
But you can sit here and talk and claim you’s the shit
With your platinum watch and chain and your iced out wrist
Fuck you! And the rusted table that you stand
Cause understand what you see and what you hear is a man!
The Centaur has returned to claim the throne
Abolishing feeble minds, who abuse the chrome
Obliterate the thoughts of anarchistic tiffs
Rain supreme with a mic in the ruler’s fists
Those who doubt me will feel the wrath of the quiz arts hatarack
The sleeper has waken to battle back
I bring forth the spice that enlightens the mind
Ouzel the chosen one here to mend the broken line
Eyes open, illuminate the darkness, regardless
Settle the smoke, and bring the starship
Star fantasia expand the galaxies,
Then the black hole emerges in time to battle me
Super novas and Novocain can’t explain my game
I crush moons and planets like asteroids insane
Give birth to the eclipse when my backs on the earth
Destroy every organism what its life was worth
Plague man women and child is where I begin
Killing off this deadly world naming Knox the eight sin
Four horsemen before bow to me
The prophecy of pain and I set you free
Upon this world as my mind takes control
The world that I chose for me to behold
And shatter the opposition with egotistical vision
And see your down fall with psychedelic predictions
This mind capacity eradicates you mentally
Rips ya tissue and strangulates you physically
My rhyming fluidics, it floats moon physics
Fuse my thought patterns in labs like bio-chemists
I’m automatic, like attics inclined to be a habit
You sporadic and can’t breath a breath like asthmatics
My ability to spit some crazy shit like this
Increases the possibility of thumping my shit
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I’m so tired living check to check
Struggling to save my neck
I’m so tired living check to check
Why can’t I escape this mess
I’m the American Dream caught in between
The seems of life beyond schemes just to make my dream
I know the feeling of hopelessness and being broke
The same pair of shoes, 3 years, laugh and joke
You work 60 hours barely making ends
Stretching every single dollar till the penny bends
Eating roman noodles up as a healthy score
6 pack for a dollar, need I say more
Peanut butter but no jelly you think it’s funny
I grew up on food stamps cause we had no money
Look forward to bi-weeks, its pay day
Pay ya bills, and it’s looking more like dooms day
I gotta get myself out the only way I know
Ink drops on a loose leaf and let it flow
Put all my thoughts down carefully with out a hitch
Cause I refuse to continue living like this
I’m so tired living check to check
Struggling to save my neck
I’m so tired living check to check
Why can’t I escape this mess
I’m the American Dream, caught in between
The seems of sociological teams and the triple beams
Balancing the position of fatherhood and a social moth
I’d rather be home then run the streets like night hawk
Playing the game of false senses of securities
When mc’s try to battle, I release & let my mind free
I’m a man, I bleed like you
I’m a regular cup of Joe, without the cream or a clue
Working hard to stay afloat of the sunshine rays
When inside I feel bottled up with a sadness and rage
Knowing, nobody controls the fate of man but I
Continue to stumble forward all efforts of try
Refusing to loose and let the world swallow me up
Regardless of the pain see I will never give up
Conquer the world in the eyes of my precious angel
You can steal the substance it’s the mind that I dangle
I’m so tired living check to check
Struggling to save my neck
I’m so tired living check to check
Why can’t I escape this mess
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I’m just trying to live, right way
Just telling my story, my life, my, my way
I’m just trying to live, right way
Just telling my story, my life, my, my way
Since I could remember I never really had too much to boast about
Pops was a feigning attic who always had his emotions out
Methamphetamine's had his mind twisted up
He could give 2 fucks about his children growing up
But then before that, the man seemed to drown in his sorrows
The liquor bottles, dreams of taking back tomorrow
Consumed by the clouds the darkness that prowled
Situations that seemed to always put him down
So in reaction he reacted in cold fashion
Bruisen kins mind body and soul is the action
Living in fear for years the wrath of this man
The uncalculated ways that he carried out his plan
Confusion and the act of love was an illusion
You crossed the crooked man and your breath is what you’re loosen
An insert to a chapter of my adolescents
So take a lesson as I step in the intersection
I’m just trying to live, right way
Just telling my story, my life, my, my way
I’m just trying to live, right way
Just telling my story, my life, my, my way
First off, I want to say I love my moms
But growing up was rough and rugged while she was gone
Childhood days was blacked and pushed away
He gave me life but innocence was plagued and decayed
You can say that sounds a little drastic
But pops raised men not little boys who sit cower
That rage that I keep from my younger days
Intertwines with my nows and my yesterdays
Daily regiments of physical brutality
I’m 20 plus and it’s hard to let my mind free
You can say I pushed away the good times
But it’s the hard times that penetrate my mind
A motto from the man to his youth
Do as he say but not as he do
To him those explained the facts of life
A blueprint or a path of the wrongs and rights
I’m just trying to live, right way
Just telling my story, my life, my, my way
I’m just trying to live, right way
Just telling my story, my life, my, my way
I sit up at night and I stare in the mirror
Contemplating about becoming what I feared?
I look in my daughters eyes and I could never do that
See I could never do what he did or even think that
The cool breeze sways aside in her short hair
Her eyes glisten from the sun light and the spring air
When she grins, I can see my moms
And when we hug they’re both in my arms
If she ever looked down I know that she would smile
Proud of her son and her grand child
I look back and wished that she had saved me
But my crazy childhood is what made me
I don’t hate my pops for the things that he did
He didn’t know better and for that I forgive
I’m older now with my own child
It’s hard times before that help me grow now
I’m just trying to live, right way
Just telling my story, my life, my, my way
I’m just trying to live, right way
Just telling my story, my life, my, my way
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P.M.C.
03:56
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Do you understand feeling powerless obsessions?
I mean substance abusiveness without perception
I never stole from a loved one to kill my cravings
I did ignore my loved ones for misbehaving
For me, the flood of dopamine to all of my brain
Caused a euphoric adrenaline rush I couldn’t contain
Unattended and recluse, resided up in my room
So staying up alone was part of my royalty tomb
Christina and I, together with an oil glass lamp
We traveled the seven seas with a first class stamp
Never enjoying the cuisines of our white surroundings
Occasionally getting warped around psychosis dreams
A constant race, no format with a winners pace
Just a heart locked and loaded in a crumbling rate
Self loathing, pin one against the other’s own route
Until you swallow up yourself from the inside out
Don’t apologize for me for the things I’ve done
I’ve put it all behind me now, I’m a stronger son
A better father, a better man, who stands his ground
I’m free from P.M.C. and I’m standing proud
2X
Go ahead and judge me, for my past, decisions I’ve made
I spent 6 years, in a clouded haze and mind state
Paranoia, depression almost had the best of me
My ability to walk strong helped from killing me
Noticing the devotees and suspects here
Awakened the need for me to get my own mind clear
I saw friends; families loose themselves in the shards
Ignoring self hygiene shuffling sex like cards
For payments, and highs to help un-nourishments
Gauntly faces from sleepless nights and binges
It’s pitiful that I subdued myself to that lifestyle
I saw it all, sex, crime, drugs with no denial
Echa sketching sectors for criminal intersections
So we could buy another bag of silly misconception
I don’t condone what I did, but I’m glad that it was done
Cause everyday I live wiser and life is so much fun
Don’t apologize for me for the things I’ve done
I’ve put it all behind me now, I’m a stronger son
A better father, a better man, who stands his ground
I’m free from P.M.C. and I’m standing proud
2X
Some times I just feel so lost…
Some times I just feel so lost..
I’m calibrated with sociopathic tendencies
Sporadically overshadowed by my dependencies
One in the same my vices hold the key
Unlocking the mystery of my own psychology
Theoretic it’s speculation of my troubled past
But dealing with the situations I just want to pass
I’ve conquered, overpowered my inner demons
Advanced past the obstacles then proceeded
I’m still standing in a cage imbedded in my mind
I can’t escape with out a pen and a cleaver rhyme
You have your problems and I possess my own
Someday in the future I won’t feel so alone
You have your problems and I possess my own
Someday in the future I won’t feel so alone
Don’t apologize for me for the things I’ve done
I’ve put it all behind me now, I’m a stronger son
A better father, a better man, who stands his ground
I’m free from P.M.C. and I’m standing proud
2X
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Knox's Verse
Apparently they knockin me like isonomy,
cock blockin’ the heart of me got me parked in this mockery
Sittin’ still aint doin’ nothing, but muckin’ and fool fuckin’,
chillin’ but nut huggin’ you know I aint for frontin’
Stop the pilly poppin’ and bell stomp ya jump
got me kickin’ and wishin’ you fake would grab the pump
I shatter ya bone shell and dwell and raise hell
while clones be sittin’ still and run the mackerel
I’m an epidemic, the lyric steal the weak spirit,
eat the flesh off the weak and shit while ya hear it
Catastrophic, lost it, Spittin’ and livin profit,
rocket, with out the boom & wishin’ ya’ll can stop it
Nonsense with the Jedi mind trick I bisquick the makeshift
bake’n the rest not to be mentioned ,
pinch the bitch shit pay attention to this spit
hope the outcome is people be getting rich like freeze
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6. |
Grief feat. Nick Pullin
03:00
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As we lay her soul to sleep
We wish for him to come complete
As he carries out her life on earth
Walking proudly cause you gave him birth
2X
She left this world the same way that she came,
Weathered and weak and no control of the day
Life slipped through the moist grip of her womanly hands
And failed to hold on for her third second chance
Infestation started from the breast
Grasped on to the soul and multiplied as a test
For individuals who surrounded her life force
Stand up or be swallowed by the hurricanes course
As she drifted away, the kids drifted away
The pain overloaded and the ship sailed away
Navigation from the captain, what happened
Now the troops rome alone for the snatching
Unable to control from the lost essence,
Asked questions why she left him with etchings
Of blessings and understandings and meanings
Of life or self control to help with his breathing…
As we lay her soul to sleep
We wish for him to come complete
As he carries out her life on earth
Walking proudly cause you gave him birth
Vanishing with out a proper good bye from the middle
Holding on to resentment he felt so little
Conquering every obstacle routed in her path
He looked up to her for the strength that he lacked
Watching this hero dissolve from disease
He walked away freely but begged on his knees
Taken respected mechanism to which to battle
Bumped heads with this shark to make this cage rattle
Similar in bite and the bark for which he knew
It’s that very understanding that made the grief true
Reconciled after years of departures and feuds
The one with many names now has taken his muse
Inner conflict, or conscience which ever
Berried emotional passages to endeavor
Life has passed away and life is now
The only chore left is to make his mom proud
He saw the being of life and what to pursue
Slip away from the cancer how can it be true
She was him, her other son and her daughter by the same
Maiden name for original kin which she came
He fought not break down fought not to frown
Fought to keep his head from pulling him deep into the ground
But no matter what he did it ended the damn same
There wasn’t adequate bottles to smother the pain.
As we lay her soul to sleep
We wish for him to come complete
As he carries out her life on earth
Walking proudly cause you gave him birth
2X
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Story of Him
03:13
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See I remember when we met like damn I fell hard
I saw the beauty in your eyes and they grasped my heart
I bragged to everyone I knew like this is the one
To bear my children and my love until the dying sun
Months have past I felt like my whole life changed
You were older so I knew I had to mature things
I had a plan back then it was us and the world
Like we could conquer anything we could settle the swirls
I engulfed myself in you and you met my moms
And when you met she immediately embraced you in her arms
Then the day came we were going to have our first child
The first in both our families to have a grandchild
You know I always wanted this, but I wasn’t ready
To sacrifice my youth for the future was scary
So like a fool, I walked away with my girl in the womb
Expected everything to work out not now but soon
I know that I hurt you, but you were my life
Everything I ever wanted, you warmed my insides
You were my backbone, the rock I leaned on
And hope that one day I can be strong
2X
We found each other again just in time for the birth
But before that my mother passed away and it hurt
I made a promise on her death bed that you would be my wife
And that I would man up and overcome all our strife
Game day 2-10 of the year 2006
Leia Elise was born and she was perfectly fit
A blessing to you and me like we couldn’t believe
For once in my life I felt like I had family
But it wasn’t happiness and I knew why
I wasn’t prepared at all resented you and you cried
Everything I always wanted was right in front of me
And blind to the mishap I once again let you free
My love never stopped I was simply overwhelmed
Inside I was a child in a fatherhood realm
Because I had to get away so I could be free
And become everything that I needed to be
I know that I hurt you, but you were my life
Everything I ever wanted, you warmed my insides
You were my backbone, the rock I leaned on
And hope that one day I can be strong
2X
I came back in the picture but lost a piece of me
Love was there but the passion we didn’t see
The fire we had was missing I blame myself
I failed to compromise I put your love on a shelf
I embraced being a dad and gave it all that I had
I pushed you away from me and the feeling is sad
My drive I held before vanished away
The man I was then dissipated away
A lover not a father, a father not a lover
Never was both and now I lay up under a cover
My ignorance clouded the fact I was stubborn
Drove you away from me your decision is stern
I wished that you knew the truth up in my mind
While you’re out having fun I sit and think about time
The wake up call you gave, I cleaned my slate
And if you find other love I’m sorry that I was late
I know that I hurt you, but you were my life
Everything I ever wanted, you warmed my insides
You were my backbone, the rock I leaned on
And hope that one day I can be strong
2X
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Lowlife Loser
03:37
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I see the way that you look at me
I’m a looser, a lowlife, a nobody
You can say what you want, that I have no goals
Cause you pissed on the game and you shat on its soul
You think your criticism is breaking my spirit
Resurrect the inherited mind phoenix of the gifted
Defecating on mellow drama, the stupid and simplistic
Battle ramming these manikins who picket
Knox, mother fucka, shaking the foundation
Penetrating through the gorilla mist of all the hating
Upper cutting the shallowness of this business
With anxiousness to pin drop the penmanship
I’m hated like communists in America
People doubting on my outcome, I will bury ya
This one is dedicated to all the peeps
Who slept on me, wished I would be deceased
I see the way that you’ve played the game
Now, I’ve returned back to remove the shame
Seek and destroy an end of you
It’s time for the rest to say adu.
2X
I sit around and watch these gimmicks,
Clown the craft, it’s time to quit it
I’m a critic a man that spit it
The game is flushed I wipe my ass hole wit it
You phony you fakes you made a mistake
I’m here to bring the chaos back and raise the stakes
What you don’t know? My habitat is surrounded by static
See I’m an attic for punishing and I’m bringin’ the havoc
Listen! I aint playin no games, fuck the shame of fame
I’ll put ya teeth on the curb and kick ya frame
Cocky yes, I don’t deal with stress
I lay you flat on your back so you can finally rest
Imitational no, I got a vendetta flow,
And I’m back on the grind to settle the score
So watch ya mouth piece homie when you speakin’ on me
Cause I’m a hungry motha fucka with his heart on his sleeve
(Let me get a second to breath break)
I almost hung the microphone and put the pin on the shelf
But family encouraged me to give AZ some help
So I loaded cases of knowledge and headed to the lab
With a blueprint in a bag and my ego much in tacked
I loaded the verbal millimeter, cocked that shit back
And amplified electrical signals to hear the broadcast
I spilled the data from the manuscripts out my throat box
Until communications connected people by the flocks
I had a message of “fuck it” speaking to open your notion
And let them know n-w-o was now set in motion
Me and my peeps went from blocks to neighborhood running
We had support from the hood that respected vocal gunning
And every now and then we would hear odium flares
So like soldiers we handled every state of affair
With out reflection just arrogance with which we abide
The Eye of RAA family just jumped in the ride
I see the way that you’ve played the game
Now, I’ve returned back to remove the shame
Seek and destroy an end of you
It’s time for the rest to say adu.
2X
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A better day, a better day, I just want to leave
I’m so lost can’t be found, can’t you let me be
Can’t I run, run away, from the pain I feel
I can’t fight another day, why can’t I leave
I got issues but you don’t even know the better half
Suicidal thoughts compromised from the fallen half
Stolen pride and confidence we don’t deserve
Yet the egos clash until the heart hits the curb
Blood sucking tentacles is pitiful
How the outside never resembles the individual
Huggin’ and kissin’ while the thoughts run ramped
Judgments of taboo giving meaning to the madness
Giving life to the stifled, neglected ones
Yet communication wasn’t clearly shooting from the guns
It’s a give and take for both parties to see the signs
Secrets evolve into infidelity crimes
A simple jump from innocence to the provocative
Can lead to a tunnel of lies and self awkwardness
Breaking the foundation of times architecture
Ignoring to fix the leaks of self manufacture
A better day, a better day, I just want to leave
I’m so lost can’t be found, can’t you let me be
Can’t I run, run away, from the pain I feel
I can’t fight another day, why can’t I leave
You got issues but I don’t want to know the fallen half
The secret societies of flocking to a better half
Misinterpretation of pleasure to the need
While bystanders watch the heart rate bleed
Imagination, is a plague to the self
Hatred upon the intellectual mind is stealth
It penetrates beyond the remnants of recognition
Allocating the pessimistic views of the fiction
Eradicating the overconfident ones
Discombobulating clarity to separate the puns
It’s a life lesson, to pick the right confrontation
To satisfy both parties take for separation
Rejuvenating, depart from the harsh nature
Solidifying needs for a positive lecture
Fixing the foundation of times destruction
Acknowledging the need for self resurrection
A better day, a better day, I just want to leave
I’m so lost can’t be found, can’t you let me be
Can’t I run, run away, from the pain I feel
I can’t fight another day, why can’t I leave
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10. |
I Know This Love
03:30
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Waking up in the morning the days you aren’t here
A tear slides downs my cheek and I wipe it clear
The soothing sound of air from your lungs
Can calm my spirit and the man that I’ve become
The simple smile you give when you awake
Illuminates my soul and takes the cake
You call me Poppa, Daddy because I am
I’ll never regret the responsibility at hand
To raise you and bathe you and teach you
Everything from the ABC’s to thank you
I want to take this time to bless my favor
And acknowledge to you that you are my savior
You gave me life when I gave you life
I’ll never regret the fact that I entered your life
It took me awhile to man up to the passage
I’m glad that I did you’ve become my passion because
I’m a man and I cry from happiness
The fact she blessed me with this holy bliss
Sometimes it’s hard to think I made you
Something so beautiful from this worthless fool
I stand tall and smile when you laugh out loud
Because inside I blush you make daddy proud
I’ll try my best not to let you frown
And hope in the future I never let you down
I can’t explain, how sorry I am
That your home is broke for your life span
Just know your heart and home is where the love is
And regardless of your mother and I know this
We love you more then words can ever say
We’ll never stop showing you until our dying day
Until then I look forward to life’s adventure
With you by my side a cohesive mixture because
I want to teach and learn from each others actions
What life’s really about in all factions
The fact you grow so much everyday now
I can’t imagine what to expect and how?
But I’m excited and I wish for the best
While I reminisce of you sleeping on my chest
You went from walking to talking so quick
That I know I’m going to enjoy this life trip
So take this as my pledge to you my baby
I give you my heart and dedication crazy
Maybe in the future, when you lay me down
The love I gave you will even still stop the frown
And when you look up above and wonder where I’m at
You can feel my presence like I never left
So with this I say thanks for things you don’t know
In time you’ll understand when you grow because
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